The Winter(s) of my Discontent

The date of my last post was April 2019! Obviously much has happened in two and a half years including Covid and the death of my mother in August 2021. In fact, I believe it was Spring 2019 when my Mom was very sick. Or am I just making excuses for why I have abandoned my blog? In any case, I feel compelled to restart it again with consistent posts. But I have made the same promises about many other things, so…

In truth, I have spent much of the past 2 years dealing with the health, medical and legal issues of both of my parents. When my mother got so sick again I had to hire nurses to help out, all in the middle of Covid. It was extremely stressful, and now my mother is gone and Covid is, well, at bay?

No one, no matter how much they were paid, would provide anyone with the level of attention, care and love I gave my Mom. Which brings me back to my original question of how I will handle my own aging. I don’t know if I will be lucky enough to live until 90, as my Mom did (although it still felt too young to me), but one thing I can do is try to maintain my physical strength. Of course various things may lay us low but I do feel this is somewhat in my control, unlike certain diseases. Much as I loved my Mom, she did not take good care of herself.  I recently had some pain in my wrist. I kept thinking it would heal on its own but when the pain didn’t go away for a couple of weeks I went to the doctor and was diagnosed with De Quervain’s syndrome, a wrist tendon issue. I try to nip things in the bud if I can.

The past couple of years have been very challenging emotionally and psychologically. But as we near the end of 2021, Covid is somewhat under control, and I will be 60 in 6 months, it feels like a good time to restart this project.

Thank you to anyone who returns and to any newcomers!

Clare